Sisters...just weeks away!

be prepared...this is a very long winded post.

Now that my blog is private, I feel much more comfortable sharing feelings and details. You have been warned ;)

As I sit here (uncomfortably) thinking about the arrival of our second darling daughter, I can't help but think about the arrival of my sweet Hazyl.

17 months sure has flown by...

It was a bit of a whirlwind. I was SO ready to have that baby and then the second my Doctor said "it's time", and sent us home to quickly grab our things and head to the hospital to be induced I remember feeling slightly panicked. Was I really cut out to be a mom? 

The first hour or two seemed to drag on, like I would never really have this baby, and then just like that, she was here. 

It was amazing. I think the best part was how intimate everything was for our sweet family. Just the three of us, alone (minus the nurses and doctor) and SO happy.  

Because everything happened so quickly, my family didn't end up coming to visit until hours later. Ty's family didn't come until the next day after that. I remember feeling so at peace with the three of us together and at the same time feeling so anxious to show my sweet baby to the world. I think in the beginning I was expecting to have her, and everyone in the world rush there to meet this little one...I was wrong. And so gratefully so.  A 4 a.m. arrival made our delivery and first hours of recovery such a  quiet calm time. I can't wait to have a little intimate time with our next addition as well. 

I think those few hours alone, with just us, was just a little taste of heaven. I remember Tyson on the phone, while I was in labor, dealing with a little side of drama (unrelated to us) and me thinking NOW? seriously? The timing could not have been worse and I was feeling so sad that he had stress put on him at such a fun and exciting time... And then as soon as things got rolling, everything was put on hold. The only thing that mattered was our sweet family that was quickly growing. Our little peanut made her quick debut...not without loudly breaking my tailbone with that TINY body of hers, and then those next couple hours of just us...where nothing else mattered, truly felt like heaven. I am so very grateful to know that this is my forever family. We are bound together, as long as we all do our parts, for eternity. I remember feeling like nothing could ever be sweeter. I still feel that way. NOTHING is more important than my darling family.

and now plus one more...

I am getting so anxious. I am feeling so overwhelmed. Part of me can't think of anything more exciting than for Hazyl to have a sister! Every little girl deserves an awesome sister, and I know these two will make a great team. I am the baby of our family, my sweet sisters are everything to me! Cedar is my partner in crime, and will always "get it" and Nikki is my absolute rock. She would never ever in a million year let me down. She is 100% there for me whenever I need anything. My relationships with my two sisters are as different as night and day, but I couldn't imagine any other way. I can't wait for these girls to have their own special bond, whatever it may be. 

 Another part of me can't help but wonder how in the world I will love this little Teeny Tiny just as much as my first. I have been soaking up every little ounce of Hazyl that she will allow. Constantly reminding her how much I love her, and secretly (not so secretly now) worrying how Miss Hattie will ever compare. Deep down, I know my much too full heart will make room some how, very equally, for me to love them both. 

With just under 4 weeks left...the waiting has begun. 

Anxiously awaiting you, Miss Hattie. 

XXO, 

Momma